The world seems so ugly, so dark, so political, so exploitaive, so filled with lies and fake people. 

Is there something wrong with me? Will I ever be treated fairly? Life is so hard and I can't decide if I'm happy or I'm unhappy. I'm so tired. 

Werk werk werk werk werk.

I realize the reason behind most of my stress, not just at work but even before I started work is my extremely high expectations for myself- so that's something I really really need to work on. 

Miss this fatty bombom

We were 19 good heavens

Vivi says I haven't blogged in too long so I decided to take the opportunity to post this very nice photo of bae and I taken by master Timmy. 

All is welllll with me- working life has hit me in the FAZE.. I miss school- miss my friends, and the kind of freedom that comes with school but I don't hate my job haha in fact sometimes I love it a lot, haha who pays you to kinda go to a theme park to take roller coasters. But in the balance of things of course I have to work hard. 

It's been officially one month since I've started work, how time flies!! I've learnt a lot as well, and I like the environment at work. And just as Misha said, time really passes faster and makes the long distance relationship faster. I wouldn't say I dread Mondays haha but I definitely look forward to my Fridays. Once it hits Monday, suddenly you find yourself at Wednesday and then BOOM it's Friday.. I have no idea how that even happens. 

But if it's anything guys, don't rush to find a job ok? Just take your time, enjoy your break and find something you really want to do- not saying you should be picky, but make sure you like what you do, and they treat you well ( give you good conditions, staff benefits etc) and also that I suppose it builds up towards what you actually really want to do in the future. It's reaaaally really important. 

Anyway the last point would just be that D IS COMING HOME IN 10 DAYS HALLELUJAH. It seems short but 10 days is so long it's killing me inside..PLEZ COME HOME NOW PLEZ.

That's all for nowww- gonna start vlogging when D comes back because I think it's an effective way of capturing our wonderful memories to look back on for the many other days we spend apart. Don't do LDR guys.. It's hard.. Cry so baddddd T.T

Byeee ending this post with a pic taken by zee wee with his film cam

“If you start living for the smallest reasons, that’s when you know you’re really living. The smell of rain after a thunderstorm, the shades of pavements when it’s autumn, the harvest season and the unspoken competition to pick the freshest tomatoes, the mediocre midnights and the color of the sunsets, the smell of bakeshops early in the morning, the frosty breeze of the fast-approaching winter, the warmth of oven when baking Christmas cookies, the thickness of paper when flipping through magazine pages, the smell of new books and new clothes and new things. When you start looking at things, really really looking, you’ll start living. Because then you’ll understand how it is to really be a human in this world full of people.”

and that is what we consider magic  

memories ! (: