Today is never too late to be brand new.

I guess you really did it this time
Left yourself in your warpath
Lost your balance on a tightrope
Lost your mind tryin' to get it back

Wasn't it easier in your lunchbox days?
Always a bigger bed to crawl into
Wasn't it beautiful when you believed in everything
And everybody believed in you?

It's alright, just wait and see
Your string of lights is still bright to me
Oh, who you are is not where you've been
You're still an innocent, you're still an innocent

Did some things you can't speak of

But at night you live it all again
You wouldn't be shattered on the floor now
If only you had seen what you know now then

Wasn't it easier in your firefly catchin' days?
And everything out of reach, someone bigger brought down to you
Wasn't it beautiful runnin' wild 'til you fell asleep
Before the monsters caught up to you?

It's okay, life is a tough crowd
32 and still growin' up now
Who you are is not what you did
You're still an innocent

Time turns flames to embers, you'll have new Septembers
Everyone of us has messed up too
Minds change like the weather, I hope you remember
Today is never too late to be brand new

Who you are is not what you did
You're still an innocent, you're still an innocent

Lost your balance on a tightrope
It's never too late to get it back

Photo c: Timmo

“我害怕。我不想再听你的借口了。 我不想我们这样结束。”

“"Good Morning"
“How was your day?”
“Be careful”
“Text me when you get home so I know you’re safe”
“Sweet dreams”
“How are you?”
“I hope you’re feeling better”
“Have a good day today!”
“I miss you”
“Good night”
“Can you come over?”
“Can I come over?”
“Can I see you?”
“Can I call you?”
“You’re beautiful”
“Want something to drink?”
“Watch your step”
“Let’s watch a movie”
“What are you up to?”
“How is your day so far?”
“It will be okay”
“I’m here for you”
“Do you need anything?”
“Are you hungry?”
“I just wanted to hear your voice”
“You just made my day”
…

You don’t have to hear “I Love You” to know that someone does. Listen carefully. People speak from the heart more often than you think.”

“You should not have to rip yourself into pieces to keep others whole.”

 

I'm sorry

When you try to stop yourself from crying and everything comes out from your nose instead.

When you lose all hope and you laugh at every single word that is supposed to matter. When you laugh like it is a big joke that is tearing your insides apart. 

When you reach your hand out to try to help someone who's dangling off the building, only to be slapped in the face by the only hand that is holding on to the building. 

I'm sorry I never saw the signs. I'm sorry I never picked up the phone to ask you how you were. I'm sorry i wasn't worthy for you to spend time to try and help me understand how to help you. I'm sorry I don't understand things from your shoes. 

I'm sorry you never gave me the chance to. 

I'm sorry because I know it's not entirely your fault.   

I can only say I tried. You let me go and the fucking consolation prize was "thanks for trying". 

Tonight I say I give up. I'm done. 

I hope you become stronger, I hope you learn to resolve your problems and not run away from them. I hope you take care of yourself, treasure yourself and learn that you deserve better and I hope you learn what love is. 

But for tonight, I give up and I let you go too. 

今天呢, 我的心好痛。

Mare mare

"The usual" breakfast.

Mr sniffles. 

Poppycakes <3 

Mehmeh club (saddle club) for brunch with the fam bam today. Had a really good time, and I think it was pretty nice to get away from the "city" life we usually live. 

If I had a choice, I would live on some quiet farm - or my dream house would be a pretty little tree house somewhere far away from the noisy. But then if I got murdered nobody would know LOL (morbid thoughts way too early in the morning). 

Who knows what if I miss the convenience of cold storage or the wonderfulness of the occasional retail therapy. That aside, I think it'd be nice to live in the quiet, surrounded by nature in all it's glory. 

A house by the sea would be great too (realize everything I think is ideal is NEARLY impossible here on this tiny island). Death by tsunami. 

Hahaha thinking about how I might die. What an odd ball. 

( don't worry people I'm not tired of living, I'm just over-thinking, because.. I don't know.. My brains pretty active around-now-time )