Blogging on 29 feb just because.
Monday, 29 February 2016
Sunday, 28 February 2016
Wednesday, 24 February 2016
Twinkle twinkle little stars
I just want to shut myself into a little bubble. It's so strange how I get into moods when I literally don't feel like opening my mouth to say anything. I can text but I don't feel like talking. Is that weird ? I'm like that most mornings I don't get to wake up myself actually.
I'm so tired of fyp. I'm so tired of feeling guilty for not doing fyp. I'm tired of forcing myself to do fyp. I'm tired of myself complaining about fyp. I'm tired of people asking me about fyp. But that's all what my life revolves around for the most part and thinking about it these few days, just makes me rather miserable. I guess I look fine, I sound fine, I smile as always but I sigh too- on the inside. I never believe in "waiting" for something to be over, and I always believe in living and embracing the moment always. But fyp is quite something else, constantly forcing me to just want to get this over with.
I'm okay but I'm not okay. Haha I can't really pin point what it is I am feeling, panic? Misery? But yet ok, normal ? it's probably always at times like these you want to give up and throw everything out of the window but you can't really..Actually I don't even know what I'm typing about anymore or if it makes sense haha just typing to make myself feel better I suppose.
*sigh* I can do it *sigh*
Wednesday, 17 February 2016
Friday, 12 February 2016
Tuesday, 9 February 2016
Cafe - Bukchon Hanok village
Suddenly went to look at the pictures from summer last year in Seoul / Japan. Found myself smiling to myself looking at the pictures of my friends and I. Left a little of my soul in summer of 2015.
Bittersweet - and I totally want to kick myself in the butt for not blogging dilligently.
Friday, 5 February 2016
Practicing with Bozz for vday. Sneakily took a pic while he was waiting for me to arrive heh. Nice pizza dinner together at this awesome and very modern pizza place at bugis plus called the pizza collective - discovered it with Jericho and have been eating there whenever we go out since haha.
And then off to Vivo to meet mong mong and tang tang. Nothing really noteworthy about today but I appreciate nice days like these - especially Fridays when I get to meet the secondary school mates. Pampered myself alittle for Chinese New Year by finally painting my toe and finger nails because I have been wanting to do so but had not done so out of the "I should be doing fyp" guilt.
Long and boring post but had a nice day nonetheless.
Monday, 1 February 2016
Watched the sunset from home today while painting for fyp.
Pain-ting
Fyp-ain
Hahaha that's what I always say. Sometimes it's not that bad I think.. I actually enjoy the results of painting, dragging myself to paint tho is quite an arduous process. All in all I just have to keep remembering that at the end of all this I'll be proud of myself ( I think ) ~ but I also cannot stop thinking about the after anymore either hahaha. Sigh.
This is a rather shitty stage of life where you are neither here nor there, and then suddenly you will be thrown into this adult thing, and you're like "how do I do this adulting thingggg??"
Do not worry do not worry ~ I've got Jesus ~
All people ever talk to or ask me about now is fyp or like the future, what are my plans or about their working life which is meh (everyone sleeps so early nowadays haha) or relationships / relationshits / getting engaged / married ?
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