On set - film shoot from 8-8 today on only 2 hours of sleep and cramps. Peng san ~ 

Got to get up real early tomorrow but I just needed to take the time to praise and thank God for his grace and his Favour. This sem was a real big crazy mess, part of me was dreading the results and yet afterwards I resigned and leaned on Him, I gave it all to Him and my  GPA actually took a great leap in just a semester. I can't explain this neither do I feel like I deserve this but I am so truly thankful I could squish everyone of you and sprinkle flower petals and potato skins while shouting DAEBAK DAEBAK running in circles. thank you. thank you Lord. 

I'm ready to take this on new semester, game face on biatches. 

All I need for Christmas is you guys. 

Sing like you're speaking. Speaking the lyrics to someone. you may not the best singer you may not have the best technique, but without emotion, you are nothing. Sing it like you mean it. Sing to someone in the world. Remember that.

The last beloved has turned 21. Uphill we go. 

More than I ever asked for. Thank you God for loving parents. 

So here's the kooky me, fulfilling my trolley sitting dreams at 21 years old. Haha 

It's been a week since I turned twenty one and I just thought I'd write a little something - not that I had to write it after a week of turning 21 but I was just too much of a lazy ass to write anything before that - hehe 

Well here I am at 21 - totally fabulous - ok just kidding, here I am at 21, feeling not very much less older or different from when I was 18. Strange isn't it ? How time seems to fly when you're older, and seems to be a forgotten concept when you were younger. People always ask the same question : "why does time fly so fast nowadays ?" - well it doesn't actually, it's just that when we were younger, time was something we never gave any thought to. I truly give thanks to my parents who have showered me with nothing but love despite my rebellion, strong headedness and inflexibility. I must say I wasn't the easiest kid to bring up - I would totally kill my younger self if I had to bring her up. (But then again if understand her difficulties, and why she behaved that way lol)  

Reaching 21, means reaching december, the end of the year. With that said, 2014 hasn't been an easy year - but then again there has never been a year without its ups and downs and such is life - a tumultuous journey. I've had a tough time in school, struggling with self doubt, I haven't had the chance to go for exchange and I've had to let a friendship which meant a lot to me go. 

Well but I do believe that God would have a reason for everything and random people have told me so over and over again, so I'm totally done harping over exchange at this point and I have let it go (: a brand new semester, a brand new year, a brand new start. Here's to even more improvement in what ever I do in school, and here's to more working on whatever I'm good at and improving on my weaknesses rather than beating myself up over whatever I'm bad at. 

Over and over again for months I've asked myself if I was a bad friend for leaving you at your worst. But after hearing from L, I've finally decided to let you go because up till this point, much to my disbelief, you're still lying and you still "don't know what you've done wrong". I think I've made the right decision to let go of this irreparable friendship because I think I deserved better than you going around portraying yourself like an innocent lamb while making Y and I look like complete bitches who ganged up on you. Reflect on yourself and be afraid about people passing judgement over what you have done rather than "what Y and I feel about you".  After hearing that from L, I honestly feel like I shouldn't beat myself up for leaving you because it's really not my fault that things became this way. Acting as if I don't know what's happening and and putting up facades, faking smiles with you. That is not what my definition of friendship is like much less talk about the bond between bestfriends. Your mom has always made this friendship as if it was some kind of unhealthy competition and I honestly have tried to erase everything I know that she's said about me the many years we've been friends, but I don't think that friends are supposed look down on one another and I've had enough. I hope maybe one day you realise what you are doing is wrong and change before you destroy what you still have today. I hope one day you realise Y and I confronted you only because we cared and we couldn't go on living lies anymore because it is the easier option to pretend we didn't know. How many days and weeks we fussed before picking up the guts to want to talk to you about it only to be greatly disapointed by your reaction even before we addressed the issue. P. Thank you for the 7 years of good memories. I don't know if you still come here but goodbye and take care. No more hanging on. 

And from here I will move on ahead to 2015. A brand new year. They often say or so I've heard so many times this past week, enjoy 21, anything after goes downhill. I refuse to believe that. So may my life and the lives of the ones I love only blossom and grow to become better and better as the years pass. How you perceive life is how you will live it. So here's to positivity and appreciation for the little things in life. 

And here's to more beautiful and stronger relationships between me and you- thanks for reading my blog, taking time off to read this teeny tiny weird person's view of life. 

See you soon. Xx 

Photos by: Sweetest Amanda 

Just some of the photos with some of the people who make my world a better place. I am a blessed child. I'm sure the photos did the talking. Thank you so much for coming and all the gifts ( you guys know me so well I can cross off so many things on my wish list even though a majority of the people who came DON'T read my blog- which is amazing ) I know I've probably said thank you a lot of times but I can't express how truly grateful I really am !!! And I am super touched by everyone because a lot of people actually  bothered to ask me if I needed help setting up for the party.

Though most of you will never come here, for those of you that do, I just wanted to say that you were invited to my party because you mean something to me, I've had a great experience/ fun, with you, or you've been there above and beyond for me just when I really needed someone without me asking. 

Well of course not everyone could make it - and for those who couldn't, you've been missed but we'll catch up in time or we've already caught up. 

Much love. Xx

Photog by : timmo, Nadia, Raymond ( this is the first legit time I've seen so many dslrs at a party- there was more than 3) 

wishlist ?

Because many people have been asking, i don't really know the price range so heres a list of things i kinda always wanted but never could bear to buy ? that i categorised to make your lives easy. Thank you so much for your love !

pro tip : avoid soft toys and ornamental stuff becaz i love them but i have no space for them.


price range : $10- $40

Travel wallet ! $29 - doesnt have to be this one but just a nice one lol

forest born book  $29

 Gold raw capsule necklace $39

Gold classic quartz $45 - or smth like that la a crystal necklace

Inspire Diary $39.90

Phone case $36 ? they are all so pretty but idk if it is in our currency or how much shipment costs

notebooks $14 but ^^^ refer to above statement


price range : $50-$60

Vanessa Quartz point $58

price range : i dont know 

decent earphones !

Taylor swift - Made of Starlight perfume ( which you can get at sephora ) $ 70 ?

art of pixar postcards $30 ? supposedly can be found in kino

Princess - vera wang perfume

a mike to record coversssss

price range : BAJILLION DOLLARS 

printing shop

you <3

handmade stuff appreciated too if you wanna do that (:

Beautiful things that are out of everyones budget but you should see because they are beautiful:

satchel
Kate spade wallet
sewing machines  LOL
tutus!

PENNY BOARDS

If all else fails, you can also get me : Zara/ Pull and bear/ top shop/ Kino gift cards - or whatever gift cards that subsidizes the above items (;


But in general I have a weakness for accessories- bracelets, necklaces.. blaa  and stationary ( EVEN THOUGH I HAVE TOO MANY BUT BUTT.. ) other things i like are - adventure time, stitch, spongebob, disney in general, unicorns, sparkly stuff, mint green/ rose gold colour / pastels and YOUR SINCERITY .. thank you for the effort , if you've already got something because i posted too late DONT WORRY.

I like Teal boxes (; if you get what i mean HAHA but anyway spend within your means ok. Thank you so so much.

Look at me , a llama .. I'm fabulous.