Past few days of brilliant sunsets and sunrises. (Before seniors camp) 

i literally do not understand why anybody would cheat on their partner like if you really feel the need to be with somebody else in the same way as you currently are with your partner, be a decent human being and end your relationship to save the person you supposedly love a whole world of unnecessary pain rather than be a piece of shit and break their heart 

Just something I saw on tumblr which immediately resounded a hundred times in my mind. YA , don't be a piece of shit. 

I cannot express how much these people mean to me, and how we are so excited to see one another everytime. How now I feel weird if I don't see them once a week. 

Proud of you home boys <3

Principles

Before I head to bed, I really need to blog / rant about this.

I'm just wondering where in the world have all the principles of the people of my generation gone to ?

Is it not a completely understood thing that if someone is attached, keep your bloody ass away from that person you are supposedly into. What happened to respect for relationships????!!! With that being said, same for the other bloody party, if you are attached, you jolly well keep your butt away from the other person and clearly establish your relationship status instead of continuing to give mixed or wrong signals. Has no one heard of something called faithfulness or something called you do not freaking pursue a relationship with someone who is attached? 

Furthermore, the group of friends around you that ship you with the girl or boy who is already attached or ship you when you are already attached, should all maybe be cheated on themselves or something so that they have a freaking wake up call as to what is wrong and what is right. Hasn't there always been a mutual understanding that you don't ship anyone with anyone who is already attached ? Where are your principles ??

The reason why i'm so mad is because this is probably the 5th or 6th time i've heard of something like this happen within this past 2 months ? Like what the hell, GET A GRIP, and maybe learn the difference between infatuation and love.

In case you didn't know, cheating is a NO. 

Do you believe in love at first sight ? 

Could you fall in love just by watching someone sleeping ? 

You've always been so mysterious. I don't know what happened and I don't know where you're going but i won't forget you and do take care of yourself. 

“You lose yourself trying to hold on to someone who doesn’t care about losing you.”

Stop overthinking ky. 

I guess it is human nature to take for granted what we have. And give our priorities and efforts to someone who may not appreciate or even notice it. 

( includes me of course ) 

Thank you everyone and anyone ( who reads this post ) who has given me love , care and concern at any point and at every point of my life. 

I'm really thankful. 

I have so many questions. 

SWIFTIES night

Happiest night everrrrrrr. 

Blew 70 bucks on her merchandise and it's haunting me now but I love what spent on so it's okay I guess. 

Would like to take the moment to praise God. I don't know if people would agree with how I thought, but I really wanted to go but I was hopelessly broke at the same time. 

When the tickets were released, because of certain reasons (one of them being broke, another being me being stupid and not using my parents credit card because I wanted to ask for permission ) we weren't able to buy the tickets before the sold out (which was really quickly).

Haha and then I decided to buy a box of cornettos with YuHan and I prayed ( as absurd as it sounds ) that one of the codes on them would win me tickets to the concert. Much to my slight disappointment ( it would be a lie to say I wasn't disappointed at all ) it won me nothing. Then and there I decided that I would just believe and rest. 

Then the keds competition popped out, but I had no keds. But through Joanne I met zj and she had keds. So we actually went out to take photos and submitted our entries using her shoes with the agreement that if either of us won, we'd split the tickets 2/2 (we would win 4 tickets). 

ZJ WONNNNN !! 

All I can say is praise God. 

We actually got category one tickets that cost $288 for FREEEEE. And if I had managed to buy tickets on the day the ticket sales started, I definitely wouldn't have bought category one tickets so so near the stage. I don't know what to say haha the concert is over but I'm still so overwhelmed with joy and praise. 

Thank you Lord. 

My happy face at the end of the night. 

Washed away

I didn't ask for things between us to come to this today. It wasn't easy for me to let go, it was hard for me to hold on. And yet everywhere I turn you're still in the back of my mind. 

 I think I cannot turn back because all I see after all of this, was that we turned our backs on you before trying to understand, before trying to listen. But the honest truth is that you tried to feed us with more and more lies, you told the story like you didn't have a choice, like it wasn't your fault and the reality is that we know the truth, that you had a choice and that we've had enough. And that we don't know who you are anymore. 

I hope you step out of your pity party soon and just wake up.

I know we had great moments and memories in these past years and it plagues me, but today at this point I don't know anymore what was sincere and what wasn't.

I'm sorry if I couldn't be a better friend. But I think I deserve more in life than your lies, your backstabs and your jealousy. 

Today I can't face you anymore, but maybe one day in the near future we can try to reconcile. I don't even know what I want anymore. 

Spongmomoyankehtart: waaa we haven't met for a long time!! What have you been up to? 

Sponglie: work / couch potato - alternating. 

D-day

Finally after about a year of hard toiling and planning, spending all of my saturdays at meetings .. The major day arrived yesterday ! The finals for our competition. 

VOMG 2014 

Voice of my generation (VOMG) is a platform to showcase the contemporary musical talents of students from JCs and centralized institutions. 

We believe VOMG is the start of a new culture where passion and the arts are celebrated. A new journey in which the intellect and soul grow together. 

We believe VOMG brings across the message that your voice counts - that's you can make a difference with your music. 

Basically we - we meaning Karthik, Jun Rong and I with our mentor Walter, wanted to start a music revolution. Call us ambitious, but that's exactly what we want, we want to change the music scene of Singapore and ignite the passion for music an arts. 

It has been really hard, to get funding and support from anyone ( schools to government ministers to everyone ) because we are so unknown. But I'm proud to say that our event went really well, despite all our problems even right before the concert. 

We have never really had any experience in planning such a competition but I think it was a rewarding experience. I didn't have much impression of yesterday's event, because I was stuck at manning the ticket booth outside, but I'm sure we made an impression on the participants. And I definitely have gained a lot of experience in terms of being creative director for the project. 

The biggest impression left on me was actually at the auditions, when the teachers of the students participating actually thanked us for giving the kids such an opportunity and that it meant the world to them. 

Looking forward to VOMG 2015 and onward. We start small but I'm sure we will get more and more support someday. 

P

One half of me wants to scream and shout and throw everything out of the window. That half of me wants to shake you senseless untill some intergrity appears. It wants you to stop living in your denial and self victimization. That half wants to make amends. That half wants to save whatever we have or had. 

The other half, is dead silent. Unresponsive, numb. The other half doesn't care or wants to not care. This half wants to give up. It has had enough. This half knows that nothing can possibly help restore anything. This half, is broken.

 

To be alone and free. 

What are friends. 

Oh no. It's June already.