I think recess week is even crazier for me than a normal week at school is even though it's supposed to be a study break. Planning my time ahead, I think I won't be able to catch enough sleep untill Friday comes. With that, I haven't forgotten to rely on The Lord so that's that. Breathe in deep and let us continue with school work. 

Jia you everyone ! 

Pink tutu because why not.

Ps. (No I'm not a hello kitty fan) 

“Human beings are funny. They long to be with the person they love but refuse to admit openly. Some are afraid to show even the slightest sign of affection because of fear. Fear that their feelings may not be recognized, or even worst, returned. But one thing about human beings that puzzles me the most is their conscious effort to be connected with the object of their affection even if it kills them slowly inside.”

- Sigmund Freud

Do I believe in love ?  

I ask myself over and over and over again as I listen to the both of you from inside the toilet. Do I ? 

Remember not to rely on your own strength but on His. There is always a tendency to struggle with self doubt, to feel small, and to question why He has placed me where he has. Talking to my girlfriends in school has reminded me to rely on Him and not just myself because I often have this huge problem of trying to handle things on my own. Talking to my girlfriends has also cast a light on to Christian fellowship and why it's so important and I think there is a need to try to start opening myself up to it again after all that history. 

Goodbye little one. 

It's hard to watch people change right in front of you, but the worst part is remembering who they used to be. 

Grandpappy's Chinese birthday. 

Today was a happy day filled with family, and family means a lot to me. 

SUPER SPECIAL

Just a teensy weensy late, but that doesn't make a big difference because it doesn't change what you mean to me. 

Happy 21st birthday vivi. 

It's a special milestone ! But it doesn't mean that adults have to be boring :) may you always be happy youthful and amazing as you are.

You have always been a beautiful person whether you believe it or not, always trying to find good in someone rather than finding the bad. Always giving people whom other people have given up on a second chance. Always telling yourself to learn to be more gracious and tolerant when the opposite party has not been very considerate about your feelings. 

You've taught me how to learn to be more gracious too and learn to give people second chances. Apart from inspiring me to be a better person, your works- whether photography or drawings or anything ( you haven't drawn in a long time actually ) really inspire me. You've grown so much from when we first met ( even then you were great - now you're even better at what you do ) so don't let anyone tell you otherwise. 

Blessed birthday v <3 hope you're very happy exploring in Europe and know that despite the distance, I'm always just a FaceTime away - because I'm always awake when you are anyway HAHA. 

Lots of love right here from Asia. 

 

"Don't be afraid to open up again. I promise not everyone will love you with a knife behind their back." 

i have no idea how to make my banner the same colour as the background- it's already transparent. Bugs the hell out of me. And I hate that the bloody post titles are blue. No idea how to solve it but for now it's time to do some homeworrrrrrkkkk.

A tiny reminder

Today Jeth thanked me for asking him to consider going to ADM as an option because he would otherwise never consider the option of pursing a path that only a minority of society doesn't really consider. I wouldn't take credit for his decisions but I'm honestly really happy to hear that he's happy, I feel all warm and fuzzy inside. 

And just that short text from him reminded me why I'm here in ADM- because of late I've been struggling with feeling small, being afraid and having doubts about my existence in ADM. It has brought back the very words I told him, about how we're pursuing something people generally tend to avoid, but what matters is that we love it and we will fight all the way to get somewhere doing what we love rather than pursue something we aren't passionate about. Nothing good comes easy anyway. 

Not forgetting His Favour. fighting~ 

There are days when I feel like the friendship between classmates in university are real. Then there are days I feel so entirely alone. They confuse me so much. Or could it be that my notion of what friendship is is not the same as theirs ? 

#deepthinking #thinkingdeep

All I Want

Performing for mid autumn festival, but i haven't found a guitarist yet and i'm not sure if i'm confident enough to play on my own.

I feel so stupid in class.

Misha is leaving tomorrow.

So i didn't get accepted to go for exchange, its still sinking in.

Please please please.

Today is the day exchange results will be released. 

How are some people so brave ?

Tonight I suddenly saw my room through my camera while snapchatting and I have to say I'm very thankful for everything I have. 

GHIBLI

Calcifer

Soot sprites

Totoro

No face 

Kodama

Some of what I spent my summer on. Self illustrated ghibli fan-art patterns ! Yay (: 

Vc is getting really really tough, presentations rejected over and over week after week. It is rather strange that after one year of preferring Viscom over type, I think I prefer type as of right now. 

It is really a huge struggle to try to deliver the level of depth that Cindy wants, slightly discouraging to actually see how great the seniors are, but at the same time comforting to know that they too were once like us before Cindy came into their lives. 

Stuck at a very difficult stage of conceptualization right now but I'm excited for things to come, for the improvement. I've always felt like I needed a lot more depth to my work and I think this semester will be the answer to that issue of adding depth. So whilst there is that struggle, I think it's comforting to know that what I get out of all this pain in the butt is worth it. 

And like jake from my all time favourite cartoon,  I believe that "sucking at something is sort of the first step to being good at something." So spirits up and up the mountain we go because if it doesn't challenge you, it doesn't change you.