Vivi + sammy pie + coincidentally sitting beside mari at the restaurant <3 best 

Oops .. Seems like I never hit publish for this post

My loves <3

Le classmates with le weekly themes 

Strange Scene 

Slightly delayed but this semester has come to an end ! It was a tough one but somehow last semester was so tough it made me very much more resilient and I learnt to stop complaining and really lean on the Lord. I've become stronger and more positive through adversity and I am proud of myself (: 

Somehow nanci always seems to like my work during final crits (: which makes me really happy - Marilyn told me too that she thinks I've improved from when I've first begun ! Which means alot to me because she's experienced and I look up to her and I've always thought of her as one of the zai ones. Made me feel a lot more relieved as well because I was really nervous before crit - feeling small beside the zai ones once again. 

But I think looking back, I've really indeed come a long way - definitely with a lot of help ! - my wonderful adm friends who are ever so willing to give me constructive feedback or tips or listen and help me generate ideas . So I'm happy ! This semester was both a good and bad one but I've had a really good time w ping and mari and VIVI too - never have I ever met her so often ever man .. As we teach year 4 I hope we still meet up and provide one another constant support and feedback. 

Missing those that are away (: - mersie, law and manda <3 hope yall are having the time of your lives ! 

Now onward to more covers, personal projects and travels this summer .. I'm so excited ! :D 

This morning (: 

So happy to have finally submitted my essay - and early somemore. On track with web design and it's time to indulge my time in surface design :D 

So much more to do but I can do it. 

I love you ath (; 

I feel like the sunrise is my reward for working hard all night. 

Even if I wake up at 4 pm Im not a pig. 

Everyday I see the sunrise now and I eat one meal a day and I shower at 1am hahaha I finally admit my life is screwed up. Two more weeks and I'll get it back to better. Thank you beloved friends for talking to me so I don't drown in my own world.

Vivi is coming tml :D 

Can't wait to see my secondary school friends.. We haven't met for two weeks but it feels like forever. 

 JIA YOU FOR YOUR OWN WAR TOO. 

I dreamt that I missed my exam

Because of a taxi driver who couldn't take my instructions - I was so upset I had to retake the mod the next semester .. Hahaha how stressed am I 

Welcome back to the period of not living like a human being guys ! How I don't have time to go to the toilet or get water or food let's not even talk about sleep - the number of times I find myself eating cup noodles because it's too late and nothing else is open but I've only had breakfast that day. Where school at 11 pm is still bursting with humans and I'm pretty sure at 3am it's still bursting with humans - watching people walk around with blood shot eyes sighing and telling each other to jia you.. Everyone trying not to freak out .. 

There's so much to do it's difficult to keep your shit together. But in the midst of that I'm very thankful for those who take a few minutes off their own work to help me with something I don't know how to do - nadz helping us with rastering, Jon helping me with cutting my wood and Jonas helping me with my web .

I REGRET I REGRET HAHAHAH 

Apart from that not forgetting Ray and Kai An who helped me print my work at like 4 am while rushing their own submissions and the strength Jia Hao lent me when I was giving up last sem and ping who's just always there - and vivi who prays for me and sends me messages of encouragement and checks in on me, jonas too - I really love the adm community. 

And my brother : because I missed the MRT home and I had to take a different route and stop somewhere far away 

Haha oh well that's all I wanna say for now.. Back to trying to keep my shit together .. 

Lazy to edit again but I want to remember: 

Last Monday 

Mom and dad wanted to take this.

Then they made us do it too.

Haha meet my dad 

Made the parents pose for me. 

Lots of deadlines but I really don't regret taking time off to go to the aquarium with the family. I was pretty meh at first because I had been there a few times already but they were all so excited because it was their first time it was quite cute haha. It was a great family day. 

I am nothing, I give it all to you Lord. When again and again I feel fear, or when I feel Inadequate, I give it all to you. 

I don't even have an appetite. 

I'm ok. I'm ok. I'm ok. I'm freaking out. 

It's not that I don't want to start on vc, but I'm so confused I don't know what to put in my "book" . Dear Father please give me clarity. 

“Take a shower, wash off the day. Drink a glass of water. Make the room dark. Lie down and close your eyes.
Notice the silence. Notice your heart. Still beating. Still fighting. You made it, after all. You made it, another day. And you can make it one more. 
You’re doing just fine.”

Cmon guys. We can do this. 

I'm not creepy ok. But this really motivates me to worker harder with my music. Slight fan girl mode - I really love the adm community - seniors batch mates and juniors alike. 

* spotted a grammar mistake - bugs the hell out of the nazi in me 

Dear God, 

Please be my Shepherd, I am truly, desperately and hopelessly lost. I really am. 

HAHAHAHA MY WORDS HAVE COME BACK TO HAUNT ME. Thank you for making my day law. 

What I meant. 

In this fleeting ridiculous moment I have a  wish that I had a boyfriend who is good with web design so he could save me from drowning in the programming- hahaha but that's just a random passing thought.

I've got a stiff neck today (my first time and it sucks) and also I've got this unicorn pimple in between my eyebrows- hallelujah *clap clap* -.-  

Ok back to WERK guyz. Werk it twerk it. 

No more telling myself I cannot do it. I create the limits. 

“It’s all in the view. That’s what I mean about forever, too. For any one of us our forever could end in an hour, or a hundred years from now. You never know for sure, so you’d better make every second count.”

Sarah Dessen

"Whoops I did not do it." 

Hahaha my life in 3 panels 

I'm 21 but 

“Sometimes you’re 23 and standing in the kitchen of your house making breakfast and brewing coffee and listening to music that for some reason is really getting to your heart. You’re just standing there thinking about going to work and picking up your dry cleaning. And also more exciting things like books you’re reading and trips you plan on taking and relationships that are springing into existence. Or fading from your memory, which is far less exciting. And suddenly you just don’t feel at home in your skin or in your house and you just want home but “Mom’s” probably wouldn’t feel like home anymore either. There used to be the comfort of a number in your phone and ears that listened everyday and arms that were never for anyone else, but just to calm you down when you started feeling trapped in a five-minute period where nostalgia is too much and thoughts of this person you are feel foreign. When you realize that you’ll never be this young again but this is the first time you’ve ever been this old. When you can’t remember how you got from sixteen to here and all the same feel like sixteen is just as much of a stranger to you now. The song is over. The coffee’s done. You’re going to breathe in and out. You’re going to be fine in about five minutes.”

The Winter of the Air