Happy Birthday Jo !

Hello baby. 

i know this is a tad little bit belated but do forgive me, this week is like mini hell week right before the beginning of recess week.

but so; yeah

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

<3

thank you for being such a beautiful person both on the inside and out. 

Always so generous- giving me little surprise gifts here and there, always so eager to meet me, always remembering me when you find new exciting things to do around the sunny island, always giving me your support whether it is to watch me perform somewhere or loving my art.

I will never forget how you came through for me when i needed an actress for my short film and you did just to help me despite being busy and also despite initially not being too psyched about acting in a short film.

i love how you are so weird and how i am so weird and we are together, we take the weirdness to another level. I love how you never ever judge me and even join me in whatever weird idea i have.  how we can behave/ entertain ourselves like 10 year olds and not give a shit about what anyone else thinks because we are having fun and that is all we care about.

  Please stay the way you are.

xoxo

viscom assignment one

yesssss. finally done with project one for Viscom.

name card, letterhead, envelope.

worked very very hard for this. Fought many wars with photoshop and illustrator recently, and i am facing this major sleep deficit.

But i must say that i enjoyed myself throughout the entire process.

i'm loving my final products, but also today after crit i can't help but feel so small in class. There were so many brilliant ones. It is so inspiring to see all their work, haha and everyone just gleans from each other's ideas. We are all just "oohing and ahhing and whoaaaing" at each other's projects.

This marks the end of today's beyond crazy intense day and finally the beginning of recess week and some catch up on the sleep.

heres to improving more and more (: 

thank you God for ADM. 

 so somehow people seem to misinterpret my last post as one of being : "emo"
well, i'm not. LOL.

Sorry, long over it.

emo posts aren't really my thing.

One year

It has been a year. I don't deny you pop into my mind here and there and I don't deny ever thinking of the what ifs. But I also don't deny that i am glad that things didn't work out because over the year I have come to realize how you were so immature and unambitious.

You were not what I wanted and I deserved better. 

Here I am a year later, more independent and stronger than I was before and I have learnt that I should never settle for less. Ever.  

The best gift in the world is a smile.

Happy Birthday (:

yay. 

Happy Twenteen-ieth birthday to you.

YES ITS TWEENTEEN. TWENTEEN OKAY.

It has been about slightly more than a year since i've known you !

like we always say : " i can't believe that i'd meet such great friends at work" 

and i think we always repeat it because it's so true.

Its like i've know you for ages viv. Its amazing how we click so well.

Maybe i won't always understand you or what you are going through at times 

and i don't see you very often anymore.

But do know that i'll always be here for you.

yes of course, "always" is an absolute word and i can't promise you ill be here for you forever. However, i can promise i'll try my utmost best to ensure i'll be there always.

Thanks for always being there for me too. Always ready to love, support, listen and never judging me.

Also i hope you know i am like maybe your number 1 fan. (HAHA)

but i also want you to know that i'm not just your number one fan because i'm your friend but because 

*YOU ARE AMAZIIIIING*

seriously. You inspire me. I wanna draw like you, take photos like you and i even started a blog because i kinda felt inspired by your writing haha. 

I love your work- you get the idea.

so i hope you believe in yourself too and keep on keeping on because i believe in you and many other people believe in you too (:

Have a great one although there is school haha 

much much much LOVE.

Heres to many more wonderful adventures ahead !

Round and around.

Been so busy these weeks haven't even had time to upload the many pictures that I said I would blog about haha.

It is amazing that time just flows like water coming out from a tap and down the drain so easily. And just like water, we take time for granted. 

Have been having assignments thrown in my face - so overwhelming that sometimes i feel like i cannot breathe. Sleep is more than often compromised these days - an hour or less of sleep before a full day of school. I probably take longer than most others because of my complete unfamiliarity with illustrator and photoshop. With that said, i often remind myself that i'd much rather be doing these assignments than writing dumb essays and thus feel rather grateful and happy. 

At the end of the day, i think it is not about complaining about how much work we have, or how horrible the situation we are in at the present. I think that it is important to enjoy the present rather than continuously look forward to the future no matter the circumstance. i used to have this " oh i can't wait for the week to end so all the impossible submissions are over." kind of attitude. But nowadays i embrace whatever comes my way and try my utmost to look on the bright side. I think it would probably be annoying if i was a whiny baby and have a complaining spirit about every single task.

Life goes by seconds, minutes, days. Some people spend their weekdays simply waiting for weekends to come. I beg to differ. If you think about things from a superficial level, weekends coming quickly sound really good. But if you look deeper, it also means than you are getting older and older slowly, week by week, day by day.

Going through monotonous repetitive cycles of daily life often causes us to forget the meaning of the moving hands of the clock and we presume that things will be the same tomorrow and the day after and the day after that. 

Also, although schoolwork may be important, i feel that it is imperative for one to work out their priorities. Certain events only happen once, a 21st birthday, a wedding, a simple family dinner. I have now slowly come to learn not to give up such precious moments just for school work. There has got to be a balance and i am now more than willing to give up a little work time just for perhaps a simple family dinner rather than simply asking my parents to pack food home for me.

photocred: Jonno 

on a side note for this week, i think it was really encouraging when a few friends who spoke to me about school told me after our conversation that it was really nice to talk to me and they could feel how passionate i was about what i was studying. I have never thought the way i spoke could convey so much, and i knew i had a passion but i never thought it was so strong until today.

To tell the truth, i'm beyond glad i am where i am in ADM today and i would never trade it for anything in the world. I now see what God had planned out for me despite doing bad for A levels and struggling throughout the whole process -my darkest days were perhaps those spent in junior college. However, i don't regret having gone through it all because junior college has really made me into a more informed, intelligent and confident individual, giving me the chance to hone my leadership skills and opportunities to fulfill dreams such as being a vocalist and a cheerleader etc. i have also met many wonderful people whom i believe are keepers for life.


haha pretty long but reflective post.

Looking back, I think it's good that I've been broken. Life is not a bed of roses and things can't be pretty all the time. Now that I've been broken, I understand how it feels and I am able to translate it to music, my singing, my art. I think it's made me stronger as a whole and I know now more than ever I don't need anyone to make me happy. Of course it is not that I wouldn't want it but more like I wouldn't feel empty if I didn't have it.

just realized its been almost a year too !! How coincidental. 

Don't worry this isn't some emo crazy post. Kylie is good. 

I pray this week that God provides. That I may see his abundant grace and love. I don't know how to and i can't get through this week on my own. How. How. Lead me to the Rock that is higher than I. 

School work is pretty intense right now- it's so crazy. Haha I'm pretty tired already . Got so many pictures that I've yet to edit and upload haha. Here's hoping I'll have some time to do so in the next few weekends. 

Jia you for me. Sigh pie

fragile

Life is so fragile.

Time flies too quickly.

Today i wished a few teachers that made a huge impact in my life a 'happy teachers day', only to find out after catching up with one of my teachers that my sec 2 form teacher had taken his life just last week. This was shocking news to me as my teacher was perhaps only 30 and at his prime.

i vaguely remember us first meeting him as a new teacher when we were secondary 2, mrs Juan introducing him to all of us. we were his very first class!

well needless to say, at age 14, we were all mischievous and we switched our cards (with our names on it) that he had requested we placed on our desks in order to help him remember our names. I became Brenda, Brenda became Pamela, and so on and so forth. I also remember mrs Juan nagging at us for doing that to him afterwards.

then there was this time where our naughty class made him so mad, he gave us a lecture and he shouted this particular word : "atrocious". i can still hear his voice in my head today, and it was funny at the point when he said it and the whole class just fought to control our laughter. we never let him go after that. we would always playfully tease him about it after moving on to sec 3 and 4.

well, i am beyond shocked that he is no longer here on Earth with us. But where ever he is, i do hope that it is better than where he once was. i will always remember him as the funny, friendly new teacher.

with all that said, i think it is necessary to take time off our busy schedules just to show alittle more love care and concern for the ones we love. i think that people should not be used or taken for granted. and for those having a hard time, a bad day perhaps, know that you are not alone, you are loved. Be strong and don't give up !

ROMANS 8:31-32

³¹ What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, whocan be against us? ³² He who did not spare His own Son, but delivered Him up for us all, how shall He not with Him also freely give us all things?