Monday, 31 March 2014

Thoughts

 
Woke up to today with a "screw this shit attitude". Didn't exactly oversleep but I just took my time to actually get to school ( which obviously meant I was late ). Skipped the entire lesson but by Gods grace I discovered my prof had the exact same class at 11.30 (my class ends at 11.00) so I went for the later class instead.

 Just decided that I was tired and it's like everyday is just such a big rush .. What for ? I don't even think many people know. It's just the fact that time is flying out the window just like that I guess. 

They forget what it's like to take nice slow walks, to enjoy the sunshine, to watch the pretty sky. They cram themselves on to public transport, try to finish up whatever they can in a day as quickly as possible and fill it to the brim, forgetting what it's like to sit on your own in the quiet for a while and breathe a little deeper. 

In the media and ingrained in everyone's minds today, is the idea that we have achieved a higher standard of living. I beg to differ though. In the past, work was work and time at home was time at home. No emails no phone calls. Work stayed at work. In the past, there weren't such things as credit cards, people were happier and they shared what they had with one another rather than today's great big desperate race towards money to buy things they can boast about that make them temporarily happy and eventually empty. 

True. Money is in a way correlated to happiness. But it also depends on the way you choose to look at things. You want it. But do you need it ? Do you need to buy sunshine? Or the sound of chirpy birds ? Or the affection of the neighborhood stray cat ? I don't think so. Theses are the things that are of quality that you should and can choose to look at. Of course, I'm not saying that there aren't things that I want and that I'm completely 0% pure and unmaterialistic. But, I'm saying there is more to life than materials, products, items you own. Blabla 

 To add on to the email/work bit, without technology, people actually have time to think their own thoughts, to have time to do things that are perhaps of more quality ? To hang out with neighbors rather than to blob on the sofa surfing the net. With that I don't discount the efficiency and the wonders that come with technology. I myself am very reliant on technology be it for entertainment or for work. ( even blogging ! ). Sharing thoughts and acquiring knowledge has become very much easier. However with that, I always think it's important to strike a balance to remember to appreciate things that are not tied to technology/money like a walk in the park in the good weather or a deep conversation with a friend whilst watching the sunset, versus constantly living life in this great big rush, a rush to earn money, a rush to make full use of time. I mean after all, you only really live once. So what would life be if everyday was rushed and you enjoyed nothing but you have a lot of money ? 

So today, Hans flew back to Germany today to be with his brother who was dying of lung cancer. So I took that opportunity to head to town to buy my art supplies for Viscom. I blew like thirty over bucks on paper haha and I'm broke now damm because I blew 70 over bucks at art friend last Saturday. 

But it was a good day (: hung out the whole day on my own- which was really nice and good - which also probably explains my unusual deep thought ramble here at the moment. 

Thank you for bearing with me if you made it here ! Have a blessed week ahead ! 

Saturday, 29 March 2014

twenty first phase




Friends for 7 years friends for life. 
Three of the keepers <3 
( keeping my fingers crossed ) 


Thursday, 27 March 2014

I got my head stuck in the clouds.


Annual Pink outfit for pink day (Byron's birthday was officially made pink day since we were 14.) 

Just planned out my week as well as looked at all the deadlines I have coming up next month. Freaking out a tad bit again after this great week. So much to do so little time. 

Share this love hate relationship with type but I can't deny I'm learning a lot from it. I think my ideas are always so weak and like terrible and I always need Angeline to push me in a direction before I actually can make things work. This is so bad because how am I going to survive alone in the working world. God help me. 

Extremely excited for vc as mentioned earlier but also a hell freaking lot to do for it ( lots of materials Ive got to buy ) - bye bye money. $$$ 

Korean is difficult haha and it takes me quite a lot of time to do the homework. Not that I dislike it, I love it but it's scary because it might kill my GPA ( which I'm not that concerned about yet still concerned because I want to go for exchange ). ALOT OF KOREAN HOMEWORK TO COME BROTHERS AND SISTERS. BRACE YOURSELVES. 

I love illustration and I really love Hans BB  (hehehe) buttt i haven't done a lot of his "sketchbook work" I think he's going to kill me at the end of the term because again I'm probably like so weeeeakkkk. It's like you really want to practice ? But you really haven't got much time ? Oh well best effort .. Time to do mrt drawing. 

Voice is abit scary because this performance is our exam piece and choir practice with my quartet has been very intense which I'm happy about but also afraid because what if I screw up my scales or something on the choir exam day and also jj (our bass) who's kinda new to music is making rather slow progress ( I pray for him God !!!). NO CHILLI no fried food. How can I live without chilli hahaha

Sorry about my rambles about all my modules this semester. Sorting my thoughts out to brace myself for the oncoming tsunami. Highly stressful but I do love all my mods this semester. 

Now all I need is very very good time management and a lot of focus. No procrastination no distraction.

 Try my best. FIGHTING~ go 카이리 go !!!

Mr. Fluffybutt



Fluffybutt acting coy then trying to attack my hand at attempted belly rubs. What a fatty. 




Excited because I have officially found the best sunset spot in ntu. 

Excited about my Viscom project currently .. I wish I had all the time in the world to just work solely on that haha but oh well.. What is lifeee. 

Craving for time with my guitar. Craving time with the sky. Craving time to sleep in. 



Tuesday, 25 March 2014

Yayers








Me spazzing out over the sky. 


What can I say ? Other than that it's been a very happy week. Thank you so much everyone (: 

Thank you God. 
Amazing sky and doing what I love (singing almost everyday of the week now) I love it. 

School work is a lot more manageable now but it'll slowly go uphil again before we reach the end and find ourselves enjoying our holidays once again ! Jia you guys. 





Tuesday, 18 March 2014

rain fall




After working so hard continuously for the past two weeks it's like my body and my mind can't take it anymore. Spending some hours procrastinating today after the high stress levels last week. Got chanel bags under my eyes, and somehow right now as I'm trying to relax my entire upper back and my arms hurt, it's not exactly unbearable but this dull winding ache that travels throughout my arms my shoulders and my neck. Stretched like crazy and massaged myself a lot already but it's not working. 

Must have come from the two weeks of non stop hunching over my computer as well as lugging my Mac book about. 

Wacom please come soon. 
I SWEAR I WILL MAKE ENOUGH MONEY TO AT LEAST BUY MYSELF A WACOM AND A PAPER CUTTER. 

And one day, someday, I will earn that money to buy myself an I Mac and a Mac book air so I won't have to carry my heavy laptop and destroy my back.

I feel like not doing anything, But I have so much left to do. 

Lez go! 

Saturday, 15 March 2014

Goodnight goodmorning world.


Everyday I sleep when the sun rises. 
I'm probably going to die young.
Is that a good or a bad thing? I have no idea. 

But I think today I feel better. 
Goodnight goodmorning world. 

Friday, 14 March 2014

Elfi's attempt at cheering me up hahaha too cute I swear. Don't know how he knows or maybe it just shows (IT RHYMES ZERMAGHERD) but thank you very much (: 

Thanks nori for coming all the way to the store just to give me a big big hug too. 

Thursday, 13 March 2014

What is life.

What is lifeeeee. 

Haha skipped my entire day of school today. Because I was so tired and depressed and I was not ready for submission. Still got a hell lot to do for this week end. Pulling up my pants and diving into it. God please give me strength. Hope my prof shows grace haha. - I really worked hard for her assignment too .. Just that it's not ready. 

Thanks nori monster for talking to me last night. Felt significantly better even tho it wasn't really anything in specific we were talking about.

Fight fight fight till I win. 

Wednesday, 12 March 2014

Help


Breathe in, breathe out. 

In and out.

In. 

And. 

Out. 

I'm not going to make tomorrow at all. Souper low right now. 

Help me help me help me help me help

Sunday, 9 March 2014

End

Weird Totoro I destroyed my eraser for :D
Gotta get up in two hours. 

This week is kind of like a hell week! 
So we've reached the end of recess week. 

Contrary to previous one week holidays, I wouldn't complain that this one was short. I think it was a good and rather needed somewhat break of sorts.Slept topsy turvy hours but I wasn't sleep deprived. 

My days started as late as 5pm and ended as early as 6am. I didn't watch tv, I didn't really go out. Apart from sleeping and eating, I mostly did work. Holidays are so unhealthy because I mostly eat one meal a day (LOL). 

 I wouldn't complain that it was a short holiday because it kinda felt rather long haha. Spent my entire week in this tiny little corner in the dining area facing my laptop doing work for VOMG, designing logos for my dad and school homework. It was a little depressing because I didn't really get much time to myself this week. But I think I'm proud of myself because given my extremely short attention span, I somehow was able to focus and spend almost every single waking hour doing work.


 However, it's kinda a little depressing because there's still so much left to do despite all my focus and so many hours spent on work and also because I didn't get enough share of my sunshine and sunsets haha. 

Sigh. C'mon c'mon kylie you can do this. Be positive. 

Saturday, 8 March 2014

Freaking out


I've been working hard all week but there's not enough time, and I don't know if what I'm doing will be liked by Angeline cos she's usually pretty strict. I mean I like it but .. Shrug. 

Huge internal struggle. I'm like stuck on whether I should or should not continue with what I'm doing or scrap it. kinda freaking out inside but being all zen on the outside haha. 

Spent almost my entire week (I'm not even exaggerating) just sitting in this same little corner of the dining table with my work everywhere. 

I just have to pray. I need that same grace. 

Thursday, 6 March 2014

C: blee

So restless I feel like I can't do anymore work and I need to explode. :/  I need some more exploring but there's no time. 怎么办


Wednesday, 5 March 2014

Adventurers here we go!



Guess where! Haha back to the place where my very first post began. Okay it's a little stinky here and what not, but I think it's really zen, windy and beautiful. 
You get yourself lost in a place that doesn't feel like a part of the bustling city of Singapore, which is something you rarely get nowadays with everyone leading their own fast paced high stress life style. Being here reminds me of the simpler things in life. 

- spending time looking for the place itself rather than counting minutes and stressing over schedules 
- driving around the very deserted but peaceful lim chu kang ( probably not something normal people would do ) in the car/ van
- good music / company singing along 
- surrounded by like heck load of trees 
- lack of people ( ok maybe it's just me I like places with not so much people and their disturbances ) 




See that house in the corner, I'm going to find it someday. Jon and I were super garang as we always are and we trespassed into this road where we thought might lead up to it but halfway there we decided to turn back because the sun was setting and it wasn't a place that was lit. 




Not so much of the jetty today but the little details and textures- stuff which I like to capture. 

The wild doggies were so cuteeeee. 


 
The company ! Bryan (: haha probably said it countless times but today was amazing. 

Haha kinda have to thank you for forcing me out or making me come out because if not for that I would be cooped up at home doing my homework  feeling all meh meh.

  After today I think i feel so much better. True, the workload doesn't change, and it hasn't been done, but I feel so much better and I think this makes my entire recess week- because I didn't plan for any adventure or fun this "recess week" when I really should have, and I'm feeling refreshed and happier after the short 7 hours today (: 

YEZ. 
















Monday, 3 March 2014

Sad day

in the life of Taylor swift fan history. 

I didn't get her concert tickets ): 

Saturday, 1 March 2014